Dead Bed Head
JCD Kerwin

living in my head, i tend
to forget i’m meant
to smile and nod
like everyone else.
but i can see
i’m not supposed to be
another ticking machine.

i’d rather fade
than spend one more day
making friends
with Monotony
and Gloom.
at least if i turn
into a comatose ghost,
my drool will fall
from a smile.

with rage and pangs
of jealousy,
you’ll wish to be
part of my world, too.

(October 2014)